Spring Break

This post is not going to be what you probably think its going to be. Currently, I am on spring break and I did not make any plans… My spring break is going to be the lost laid back and relaxed week and a half ever. Most people go to the beach or some fun place for vacation, and I normally do too but this month is super busy so my family decided to stay home.

I was kind of upset at first because I saw everyone doing such fun things, but I actually like this whole kind of “stay-cation” type of thing. I am just taking care of myself and focusing on the little things. I normally get up around 5 AM during the school year but I have been getting up around 8:30 just to do nothing. I have been lounging around my house in sweatpants all day and just eating food all day :p

I guess the purpose of this post is to just let you know that sometimes instead of going somewhere new and fun, it can be fun and good for you to just stay home for a bit and focus on the little things.

Spring and Summer Look Book

It is now starting to warm up where I live and summer is right around the corner, I decided to put together a look book of one week of outfits  for spring and summer type weather.

Day one-  Burnt Orange and white stripped cropped shirt I got from target with high waisted and distressed  jeans and gray converse. I like this outfit because it is very casual and also kind of edgy, if it was colder I would throw on a leather or jean jacket

Day two- Jean shorts that I paired with a black flower tank top, it had small white outlines of flowers and leaves. I threw on black gladiator flats from Francesca’s. This outfit felt like a toned down version of a Coachella outfit.

Day three- I picked out light blue chiffon type tank top that is halter style, I put these with dark jeggings. I then put on some white converse to brighten up the look. This outfit is laid back but could be dressed up with hair or makeup.

Day four- On day four I decided to pair a big and baggy type long sleeved, button up sweater with a black knee length dress that has tiny daisies on it. I would wear white converse with this or Jack Roger type sandals to dress it up a bit.

Day five- Floral, chiffon, pleated skirt paired with a short sleeved, black t shit tucked in. With this outfit I would wear black flats, or any type of sandals really that where neutral in color.

Day six- For a warmer day I would wear jean shorts with a black shirt I have.It is halter and very flower with cut outs on the shoulders. There is white embroidery detailing on the collar and chest area with small flowers and such. The sleeves are very flower and almost like wings :p that have white detailing around the edge too. I paired this outfit with converse, sandals or flats, it could be dressed up or down depending on the occasion.

Day seven- For the last outfit I chose, is very hippie style. I paired burnt orange palazzo pants that have almost a netting type of layer over them with a long sleeved, white, short sleeved crop top. I would wear flats or wedges with this outfit if I was going somewhere nicer.

 

Walls?

I hate the way you look at me                                                                                                              I hate drying my tears                                                                                                                           you cause a lot of heart ache                                                                                                             but I trust you with my fears

It wasn’t my best decision                                                                                                                    I never have been smart                                                                                                                      I broke down all my walls for you                                                                                                and that is just the start

you always make me feel bad                                                                                                              I think its all my fault                                                                                                                  sorry, sorry, sorry I say                                                                                                                   Can I just control. alt.

Delete.

My Bucket List

MY BUCKET LIST!!! I need to write one anyways because some of the things I want to do are able to be done now so I might as well just write it all down here. 🙂

1. I want to go to the airport and take the next flight to wherever it is
2. I want to go bungee jumping… but blindfolded
3. I would like to go sky diving
4. I want to try getting accupuncture
5. I think that swimming with sharks would be fun
6. I want to try cliff diving
7. Reading a banned book would be intersting
8. I want to go on a cruise to somewhere not tropical
9. Going to Australia would be fun, I think
10. GET A TATTOO
11. I want indoor skydiving
12. I want to travel with just my three brothers to a foreign country
13. I want to visit a new country every year when I am out of college
14. I think exploring a cave would be fun
15. I want to participate in murder mystery dinner

Things To Make You Smile

Here is a list of fun facts to make you smile…

1. A 6 year old applied for a job as a train driver, and was hired as the director of fun
2. Every year, hundreds of trees are planted because squirrels forget where they bury their nuts.
3. Katie Vandermark @kvandermark02 :p
4. Blind people smile even though they have never seen one.
5. Otters hold hands when they sleep so they don’t drift away in the water.
6. A group of kittens is called a kindle.
7. Norway once knighted a penguin.
8. There have been studies that shows that goats have accents and dialects like us.
9. Dolphins have names for each other.
10. Its almost impossible to say the words bubbles, sprinkles, push pop, or willy wonka in an angry tone.
11. When rabbits get really excited and start to jump around, its called a binky.
12. New born giant pandas are the size of a stick of butter.
13. Canadians eat more donuts per capita than any other country.
14. In april 1930, the BBC radio show reported that there was no news and had a piano player play live majority of the day.
15. Apollo 8 astronauts used silly putty to hold their tools in place within the zero gravity environment.
16. The national animal of scotland is a unicorn.
17. A word that is its own antonym is called a contronym.
18. Dogs nose prints are all different to each other like a humans fingerprint.
19. Charlie Chaplin once entered a Charlie Chaplin lookalike contest and lost.
20. On the 2011 census in the Czech Republic, over 15,000 people listed their religion as “Jedi”.

How to be okay with yourself :)

Recently a friend of mine was put into a situation where they felt pressured to do something that she didn’t want to. It got me thinking about how to be okay with saying no. How to be okay with your self, so I came up with a few things that might help with being okay with yourself.

1. Do what makes you happy. If you do something consciously knowing that you don’t want to do and have the choice to not do it, then don’t. For example, if a you feel that you should eat a cookie just because its on the table in front of you with your name on it, doesn’t mean you need to. It won’t change time and space either way but its little things like that, that can make a difference in how you feel at the end of the day

2. Look in the mirror and point out the good things. Everyone has something beautiful about them and you should be able to see it too. I look in the mirror every morning before I do my makeup and I try to point out three good things about myself, even if its the simple fact of hey that one pimple went away, or look I my dark circles aren’t as bad.

3. Surround yourself with people you love. If you are trying to be friends with someone even though they aren’t the best person in the world, you are wasting time when you could be laughing until you can’t breathe with someone you actually fit with. Making new friends is fun but if you don’t click right away with a person then there is no reason to waste time trying to start a friendship.

4. Don’t compare yourself to people. There will always be people better at things than you and people worse than you. You could be really good at sports but not good at playing instrument. But someone else could the the other way around. If you judge a fish based on its ability to climb a tree then it will life its whole life thinking they are stupid.

I hope this helps in some way even if its just a little bit. No one wakes up one day and loves every bit of them even though it would be nice if it worked that way. Everyone can wake up and feel a little bit more okay with different aspects of who you are. I think that everyone is beautiful, so just be you even if its the only thing you do today.

RANT: Beauty Rules

I hate the fashion industry. They publicize all of these size zero models and they tell little girls seeing magazine cover and watching fashion shows that this is what beautiful looks like. They are wrong though. Every single person in the entire world is beautiful. I find a good thing in everyone I see, even if I don’t particularly like them.

I feel that people have been making more of an effort to include all sizes and all different types of beautiful into their shows, magazines, campaigns, etc. but there are still some people who are getting all sorts of bent out of shape. Some people are saying that now curvy women are getting more recognition that other body types and that they are now the ideal body type. THAT IS NOT THE POINT THOUGH. THE ENTIRE THING STARTED BECAUSE CURVY WOMEN AND WOMEN OF COLOR WERE NOT BEING REPRESENTED ENOUGH AND STILL AREN’T.

I want to wake up one day and see a fashion campaign picture with all types of women and not think to myself  ‘Oh they are just trying to be inclusive.’ I want the fashion industry to be inclusive out of habit and not because they are specifically trying to. Yes, curvy women have gotten almost ‘trendy’, but that is not to say that they are the ideal body type. If you have a body, and you are healthy, then you have the ideal body.

Even women of color are getting more representation I feel and that makes me so happy. Every shade of skin color is mixed with 2 parts love and 3 parts beautiful. If you have skin that is healthy and does its job, then your skin is beautiful and you should celebrate that.

This rant is simply me complaining and I don’t feel bad about it. As long as women are not being potrayed equally then I will have something to complain about. As long as some people are trying to get one body type or skin color more recognition over others, I will have something to complain about. EVERY BODY AND EVERY SKIN COLOR IS BEAUTIFUL AND SHOULD BE CELEBRATED! When people can get that through their minds then I will then sleep happy, goodnight everyone and remember you are beautiful.

What is love? <3

Today I went to a party and learned a lot about love and I felt like writing it down for the internet to have forever. BE PREPARED FOR WORD VOMIT

Everyone has a different definition of love but it all seems to boil down to the same thing which is just an immense emotional connection to someone in some way whether that be with your friend, mom, significant other,etc. I have learned a sad truth today, which is that even though someone might start a fire inside of your heart that will never die, they are not always the one that will be there forever.

I have a close friend and her relationship is fizzling out, which is very sad and difficult to watch. This relationship brought together a lot of people and is the connecting link to many friendships.  I feel that this relationship has helped her realize more of who she is and what she wants in a relationship. It helped spark a fire that will never die, but he will not be around to watch the fire grow. With her being my best friend I want what is best for her but I also am rooting for her relationship.

I also just want to through out something. Find someone to spend your life with that will take care of you even when they are mad at you. If you are in a very heated argument and are also very sick, they should still make sure you are okay. If something is happening in your life and you need someone to lean on, I feel as though they should be there for you even if y’all are fighting.

This is all just my personal opinion about different aspects of love and this post has no purpose other than for me to word vomit into the internet for all to see. I hope to read this later on in life and see how my view on love has changed. Goodnight all ❤

Letter To My Past Self

If I were to write a letter to my past self it would a little like this….

Dear Ally,

Today you have friends. You have a loving family. A roof over your head and food on the table. Everything that seems like the end of the world now, is just preparing you for the future. Remember that time you threw up in class and wanted to die? Now you sing… out loud… in front of 56 people everyday… and you don’t care! who would have thought?